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Fighting for joy

I heard the phrase "fight for joy" recently and it struck me how ironic and yet how true the phrase is. Sometimes it's a literal fight, a struggle, a war to just find joy. I feel like that phrase sums up where I'm at right now. In a season supposed to be filled with joy… Continue reading Fighting for joy

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It’s not about the past

Yesterday I was looking at the story of Rahab. It's found in Joshua 2. She protects the spies and in return she and her family are spared. It's a good Old Testament story. But here's the thing about Rahab. Almost every time she's mentioned in the Bible, Old or New Testament, she's called "Rahab, the… Continue reading It’s not about the past

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Hope in the broken parts

Well it's been a minute...or several weeks. To be honest, they've been trying weeks and existing was enough work. I got sick, had to take steroids (anxiety brain on steroids is bad), and then just had a very challenge week after that (as did everyone around me). But here I am today, not really sure… Continue reading Hope in the broken parts

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Honoring yourself

Today is a better day, mentally. I woke up reminded that a year ago I bought my house and all the grateful feelings for the way that God provided for me in the silly, inconsequential things as well as the important things. This day will always be a day of gratitude because we survive and… Continue reading Honoring yourself

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Just love and be loved

If you follow me on social media you know, if not let me fill you in. I spent about 6 days substitute parenting. My friend, one of my people, is an amazing foster mom to a wild and crazy, loveable two year old. (Girl, bless!). When she went to her brother's wedding, I got the… Continue reading Just love and be loved

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We don’t have to be ashamed

So I was thinking about shame. I know. I know. It's a weird topic to think about. But really this is how it started. I was thinking about why we don't talk about things that we struggle with. I mean really. If you break your arm, you have to talk about it because it poses… Continue reading We don’t have to be ashamed

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Paying attention

That's kind of a funny title for a blog post about anxiety. I realize that. I'm aware. But it seems like a good one today. Oh, ya...sorry did I not mention...I guess I'm writing about that again today. I mean by now you shouldn't be surprised. If you are, you should know I fully believe… Continue reading Paying attention

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A troubled heart

It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart

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The sliver of light

It's funny looking at the last post and noticing that I said I would do battle again. I was thinking maybe next year. Maybe 6 months from now. Well...I didn't make it to the end of the week. Something started on Thursday. Silly things annoyed me. People annoyed me. I didn't really notice it though.… Continue reading The sliver of light

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What you can do

I have been fairly open about mental health in these last months. Whether it's on my blog here, on Instagram or in person, I've not necessarily shied away from it. Some people have wondered. Some people have asked. Why speak so candidly about this? The answer is simple. Because I was ashamed and now I'm… Continue reading What you can do