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Dear brain…I hate you

I am not 100% that I’m going to publish this post. But, if you haven’t figured out yet that I’m a verbal processor, welcome. You must be new. This is one of the ways I process, and I am processing a lot right now. I went back and looked at my last blog post for… Continue reading Dear brain…I hate you

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I’m important too

I still go to therapy. If you're surprised by this, you must be new here, so welcome. But yes, I go to therapy. What I used to be so ardently against, for myself, I now have come to look forward too. It's like a mental health accountability partner. And I need all the accountability partners… Continue reading I’m important too

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Paying attention

That's kind of a funny title for a blog post about anxiety. I realize that. I'm aware. But it seems like a good one today. Oh, ya...sorry did I not mention...I guess I'm writing about that again today. I mean by now you shouldn't be surprised. If you are, you should know I fully believe… Continue reading Paying attention

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A troubled heart

It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart

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Sometimes it has to change

I've been pretty anti-change my whole life. My resume itself leads you to believe I stick with one thing for a really long time. Change is hard...probably because it's hard to control and this little control freak doesn't like the unpredictability of it. But change happens. It happens everywhere you look. Seasons change. If they… Continue reading Sometimes it has to change

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What you can do

I have been fairly open about mental health in these last months. Whether it's on my blog here, on Instagram or in person, I've not necessarily shied away from it. Some people have wondered. Some people have asked. Why speak so candidly about this? The answer is simple. Because I was ashamed and now I'm… Continue reading What you can do

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Death of a dream

I spent some time today reflecting and rereading where we've been. I felt compelled to start this blog a little over a year ago. As I reflect, it feels like so much longer than that as so much has happened. Much of it is found in coming to terms with a life that I didn't… Continue reading Death of a dream

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Safety in the journey

"You have things you need to work on, too." This was said to be in the midst of a discussion about something I felt hurt by. First, let me state that I am proud of myself for having the discussion and staying in it until the resolution. Because you see I don't normally do that… Continue reading Safety in the journey

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The sacred middle

It's been almost a month working through this thing, this month where I realized depression was a real thing and a real problem. This was a month where I had to lean quite heavily on my people for a few weeks. But then... Here's the thing, God put those people around me in the worst… Continue reading The sacred middle