I recently had a heart procedure. It’s one that had been brought up off and on for 20 years. But the risk never outweighed the benefit in my mind. It wasn’t bad enough to let someone play with my heart…until it was. I had a condition called SVT…supraventricular tachycardia. (In faith I’m using past tense… Continue reading I’m powerless…but He’s not.
Tag: control
Hope…when it looks hopeless
I wrote about this on Instagram the other day but God has me in Jeremiah. Why? No idea. But I’m learning not to question…much. What I was struck most by this verse was the context it was in. People pull it out as hope that everything is going to be fine. But that does it… Continue reading Hope…when it looks hopeless
It’s good enough
I know. Two blogs in one weekend. Watch out. I had coffee with a friend recently and she truth bombed me. It was just a basic question, but it exposed a piece of me that I don’t love. I denied it at first. Then after mulling it over for another day I had to be… Continue reading It’s good enough
The quest for peace
Sometimes my temper goes before my brain. I mean really your brain is hardwired like that, to react first and ask questions later. It’s good news if you have your hand on a hot stove, not as great if you say or do things you later regret. Basic neuro stuff coupled with red hair makes… Continue reading The quest for peace
Weakness and peace
I’ve been reading and studying through a Bible study on Anxiety and as I watched the companion video on Moses, this quote hit me because it feels so opposite of what the world would say but also because it feels so much like what He’s been trying to teach me. I don’t love weakness. I… Continue reading Weakness and peace
Gut punches and all the things
Well…hi. It’s been a minute. It’s funny. This blog started after a trip to the bottom of a pit and yet sometimes that’s where I run out of words. I hate to blame C…(you know) on everything but it’s been hard. Watching the career you love become so hard. Watching people die. Loving people who… Continue reading Gut punches and all the things
Dear brain…I hate you
I am not 100% that I’m going to publish this post. But, if you haven’t figured out yet that I’m a verbal processor, welcome. You must be new. This is one of the ways I process, and I am processing a lot right now. I went back and looked at my last blog post for… Continue reading Dear brain…I hate you
I’m important too
I still go to therapy. If you're surprised by this, you must be new here, so welcome. But yes, I go to therapy. What I used to be so ardently against, for myself, I now have come to look forward too. It's like a mental health accountability partner. And I need all the accountability partners… Continue reading I’m important too
Paying attention
That's kind of a funny title for a blog post about anxiety. I realize that. I'm aware. But it seems like a good one today. Oh, ya...sorry did I not mention...I guess I'm writing about that again today. I mean by now you shouldn't be surprised. If you are, you should know I fully believe… Continue reading Paying attention
A troubled heart
It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart
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