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Terminal self-sufficiency

I hate weakness. I remember as a kid, my grandpa called me “sissy” one time. Thinking back, he one hundred percent meant it as “sister” in definition, but I remember being so mad at him. “I am NOT a sissy!” I yelled and then refused to talk to him for an extended period of time.… Continue reading Terminal self-sufficiency

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Gut punches and all the things

Well…hi. It’s been a minute. It’s funny. This blog started after a trip to the bottom of a pit and yet sometimes that’s where I run out of words. I hate to blame C…(you know) on everything but it’s been hard. Watching the career you love become so hard. Watching people die. Loving people who… Continue reading Gut punches and all the things

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All the giants

This morning as I sat in church listening to the first of a sermon series on facing your giants, the irony wasn’t lost on me. Exactly 3 years ago this journey started. Exactly 3 years ago today was probably the most pivotal moment of my adult life. Not too long after this blog was born… Continue reading All the giants

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The story isn’t over ;

So I’ve been thinking about this post for a while. That’s probably why it’s been quiet here. That and pandemic. Hello. It’s been a lot. The world feels chaotic and unstable and all things. Whether or not I actually publish this is yet to be seen. I mean basically if you’re reading this I decided… Continue reading The story isn’t over ;

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Pandemic Confessions of an introvert non-hugger

Y’all. If you don’t know me in real life, I’m a non-hugger. It’s ridiculous enough that people make fun of me. They make it their personal mission to try to hug me sometimes. I’ve also always been an introvert at the core. And while I do have extroverted tendencies around people I am comfortable with,… Continue reading Pandemic Confessions of an introvert non-hugger

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Dear brain…I hate you

I am not 100% that I’m going to publish this post. But, if you haven’t figured out yet that I’m a verbal processor, welcome. You must be new. This is one of the ways I process, and I am processing a lot right now. I went back and looked at my last blog post for… Continue reading Dear brain…I hate you

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I’m important too

I still go to therapy. If you're surprised by this, you must be new here, so welcome. But yes, I go to therapy. What I used to be so ardently against, for myself, I now have come to look forward too. It's like a mental health accountability partner. And I need all the accountability partners… Continue reading I’m important too

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A troubled heart

It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart

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The sliver of light

It's funny looking at the last post and noticing that I said I would do battle again. I was thinking maybe next year. Maybe 6 months from now. Well...I didn't make it to the end of the week. Something started on Thursday. Silly things annoyed me. People annoyed me. I didn't really notice it though.… Continue reading The sliver of light

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What you can do

I have been fairly open about mental health in these last months. Whether it's on my blog here, on Instagram or in person, I've not necessarily shied away from it. Some people have wondered. Some people have asked. Why speak so candidly about this? The answer is simple. Because I was ashamed and now I'm… Continue reading What you can do