I heard the phrase "fight for joy" recently and it struck me how ironic and yet how true the phrase is. Sometimes it's a literal fight, a struggle, a war to just find joy. I feel like that phrase sums up where I'm at right now. In a season supposed to be filled with joy… Continue reading Fighting for joy
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A troubled heart
It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart
Solemnly Seeking Discernment
I'm in a weird place right now. No, not physically. Physically I'm in my bed, exhausted and ready to sleep if only this pesky brain would shut down. I'm in a weird place in life. If you've been around, you know I have a control thing. And I like to know what's going to happen,… Continue reading Solemnly Seeking Discernment
Still good
Yesterday I posted a quote that was very much how I felt: "God, I don't know if you're still good anymore, but I know that I still want you. I don't want to live without you." I didn't completely trust in the goodness of God because when my circumstances are hard, when it looks like… Continue reading Still good
The time I almost gave up
The story I'm gonna tell might scare some folk. I'm aware. (ie...Mom...I'm fine. You don't need to pack.). But stick it out to the end; it'll be worth it. Last night I found the bottom of the pit. I told you this week had been bad. I was not feeling well, I was overwhelmed, I've… Continue reading The time I almost gave up
Is it even raining?
To say this has been a rough week is an understatement. I have been frustrated with somethings, annoyed with others, and physically sick and tired on top of it all. I'm just flat worn out in all the ways. God and I have had a lot of conversation this week. If you don't hold conversations… Continue reading Is it even raining?
I believe in evolution
Woah. Calm down. I was not about to get into some theological science debate when I made that title, but did it get your attention? What I mean to say is I believe in my evolution as a person, and yours too. I think if we are doing life right we are constantly analyzing and… Continue reading I believe in evolution
Good things still end
I have a favorite podcast that comes out on Tuesdays. It's called "The Next Right Thing" by Emily P. Freeman. I love it because it's short (usually 15 minutes or less), but it's power packed. I also love the calm of her voice. It suits me on Tuesdays. That's not to say some of the… Continue reading Good things still end
This Season.... 