life, My Faith

Fight it out

I’m pretty sure I’ve used this picture before. I found it in my Facebook memories. But I feel like it fits where I find myself again, fighting for faith. Don’t hear that wrong. I still have faith deep down but there are things to wrestle out. Truthfully, I think I’m still wrestling out things that… Continue reading Fight it out

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Hold my hope

The last year and a half have been hard, brutal even. That’s not a news flash. We’ve all been affected in some way. We’ve all been changed in some way. Last weekend I felt challenged to find my fight again. To fight for me again. And this week I’ve been mulling that over in my… Continue reading Hold my hope

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A troubled heart

It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart

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Death of a dream

I spent some time today reflecting and rereading where we've been. I felt compelled to start this blog a little over a year ago. As I reflect, it feels like so much longer than that as so much has happened. Much of it is found in coming to terms with a life that I didn't… Continue reading Death of a dream

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Oh for grace…

It's been a while. This has been a very busy month. The last few weeks have been brutal for various reasons, some in busyness and some in storms, tornadoes and flooding (yup I live in that state). While I've been silent here, it doesn't mean anything ominous. It's a mixture of both busyness and working… Continue reading Oh for grace…

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The sacred middle

It's been almost a month working through this thing, this month where I realized depression was a real thing and a real problem. This was a month where I had to lean quite heavily on my people for a few weeks. But then... Here's the thing, God put those people around me in the worst… Continue reading The sacred middle