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Still good

Yesterday I posted a quote that was very much how I felt: "God, I don't know if you're still good anymore, but I know that I still want you. I don't want to live without you." I didn't completely trust in the goodness of God because when my circumstances are hard, when it looks like… Continue reading Still good

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Is it even raining?

To say this has been a rough week is an understatement. I have been frustrated with somethings, annoyed with others, and physically sick and tired on top of it all. I'm just flat worn out in all the ways. God and I have had a lot of conversation this week. If you don't hold conversations… Continue reading Is it even raining?

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Here’s my heart…

Yesterday was rough. God and I did some wrestling last night; y'all saw a little of that on two separate blog posts. Today I feel it deep in my bones. My heart goes into a fun rhythm called SVT sometimes. Afterward, depending on how long it hung out there, I get what is affectionately known… Continue reading Here’s my heart…

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I’m tired of character

I'm about to say something that some of you might not like, but it's a question I have today. And, honesty always. How do we keep praying for miracles when they just don't seem to ever actually happen? So many times in the past people pray with expectations for healing and yet that person dies… Continue reading I’m tired of character

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Empty places

I saw a post today about being in the middle between Christmas and New Years, when you don't know what day it is or what you're supposed to be doing. Healthcare has no holidays, so we don't really have that, but I get the sentiment. I have reached the point in the holiday season where… Continue reading Empty places

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Where are we going?

I was reading Everyday Holy by Melanie Shankle, and she talks about the need to stop asking God why things are happening and instead asking Him where we are going. But it's so much easier to ask why. I think when I think about the question, where are we going, I almost want to pose… Continue reading Where are we going?

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A little faith is what I need

I woke up this morning, still with the bronchitis that won't die, but oddly enough that feels more normal than anything else that has happened lately. Every winter without fail at some point, it will happen. My lungs rebel and I get the respiratory crud. I decided this morning that I was not going to… Continue reading A little faith is what I need