life, My Faith

A troubled heart

It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart

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You’re brave, beautiful and handpicked

So today I'm trying to spend downtime. While I'm sitting in front of the TV, it isn't on. I'm in two different Bible study groups (well 3 really) and I'm using the time to prepare for the next week. But I'm also trying to rest well. Monday I got the ok from cardiology to attempt… Continue reading You’re brave, beautiful and handpicked

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Unknown blessings

I feel like if I start every post with, this has been a trying time, you may start to doubt my authenticity. But friends...2018 was brutal but 2019 has been coming in hot on its heels. I think by now if you've been reading this for a minute (or if you've known me in real… Continue reading Unknown blessings

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Solemnly Seeking Discernment

I'm in a weird place right now. No, not physically. Physically I'm in my bed, exhausted and ready to sleep if only this pesky brain would shut down. I'm in a weird place in life. If you've been around, you know I have a control thing. And I like to know what's going to happen,… Continue reading Solemnly Seeking Discernment

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That fear thing

Today I woke up with the 23rd Psalm in my mind. We all know the words. It's a required part of the Christian experience. As I thought through it though, I know that even if I can say the words, that's not how I live. But it should be. "Though I walk through the valley… Continue reading That fear thing