I recently had a heart procedure. It’s one that had been brought up off and on for 20 years. But the risk never outweighed the benefit in my mind. It wasn’t bad enough to let someone play with my heart…until it was. I had a condition called SVT…supraventricular tachycardia. (In faith I’m using past tense… Continue reading I’m powerless…but He’s not.
Tag: this stupid heart
I’m important too
I still go to therapy. If you're surprised by this, you must be new here, so welcome. But yes, I go to therapy. What I used to be so ardently against, for myself, I now have come to look forward too. It's like a mental health accountability partner. And I need all the accountability partners… Continue reading I’m important too
A troubled heart
It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart
You’re brave, beautiful and handpicked
So today I'm trying to spend downtime. While I'm sitting in front of the TV, it isn't on. I'm in two different Bible study groups (well 3 really) and I'm using the time to prepare for the next week. But I'm also trying to rest well. Monday I got the ok from cardiology to attempt… Continue reading You’re brave, beautiful and handpicked
Unknown blessings
I feel like if I start every post with, this has been a trying time, you may start to doubt my authenticity. But friends...2018 was brutal but 2019 has been coming in hot on its heels. I think by now if you've been reading this for a minute (or if you've known me in real… Continue reading Unknown blessings
Unmet expectations
As I look at a lot of the current new books, I'm struck with a common theme. A lot of them tell the story of unmet expectations in some area of life (or every area of life). It's just not what we thought it would be. I get it. I mean I would say a… Continue reading Unmet expectations
Just a little help
How well do you do at asking for help? If you do that really well, I might need some pointers. I am terrible at it. I hate admitting I can't do something or handle something on my own. I mean even when I'm surrounded by a bunch of people ready, willing and capable of helping… Continue reading Just a little help
Solemnly Seeking Discernment
I'm in a weird place right now. No, not physically. Physically I'm in my bed, exhausted and ready to sleep if only this pesky brain would shut down. I'm in a weird place in life. If you've been around, you know I have a control thing. And I like to know what's going to happen,… Continue reading Solemnly Seeking Discernment
That fear thing
Today I woke up with the 23rd Psalm in my mind. We all know the words. It's a required part of the Christian experience. As I thought through it though, I know that even if I can say the words, that's not how I live. But it should be. "Though I walk through the valley… Continue reading That fear thing
To just be held…and like it
Oh, friends. I sit here completely exhausted and in awe of everything that has happened and I feel compelled to write it out, to tell you of the amazing mercies of a God who gives us exactly what we need exactly when we need it. This weekend we, my people and I, embarked on Goals… Continue reading To just be held…and like it
This Season.... 