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Reflections on surrender

After it was over, the realization hit.  That was from God, not from me.   I have given my recovery testimony so many times and each time I was told I should write a book and applauded for my writing and story telling abilities.  I am thankful that God has in fact given those abilities to… Continue reading Reflections on surrender

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Terminal perfection

It’s the start of Lent, Ash Wednesday to be exact. (And Valentine’s Day. Random). There’s something about Lent that draws me to it, to be intentional about the things. It’s the reminder of how Christ suffered and died just for me. I like to do a Lent study. This year it’s from Well-Watered Women, which… Continue reading Terminal perfection

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Wilderness preparation

For he is the one about whom the prophet Isaiah had spoken: “The voice of one shouting in the wilderness, ‘prepare the way for the Lord, make his paths straight’” Matthew 3:3 When I think of the wilderness, I don’t equate it with a good time. I know there are people who like that kind… Continue reading Wilderness preparation

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I’m powerless…but He’s not.

I recently had a heart procedure. It’s one that had been brought up off and on for 20 years. But the risk never outweighed the benefit in my mind. It wasn’t bad enough to let someone play with my heart…until it was. I had a condition called SVT…supraventricular tachycardia. (In faith I’m using past tense… Continue reading I’m powerless…but He’s not.

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It’s good enough

I know. Two blogs in one weekend. Watch out. I had coffee with a friend recently and she truth bombed me. It was just a basic question, but it exposed a piece of me that I don’t love. I denied it at first. Then after mulling it over for another day I had to be… Continue reading It’s good enough

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Terminal self-sufficiency

I hate weakness. I remember as a kid, my grandpa called me “sissy” one time. Thinking back, he one hundred percent meant it as “sister” in definition, but I remember being so mad at him. “I am NOT a sissy!” I yelled and then refused to talk to him for an extended period of time.… Continue reading Terminal self-sufficiency

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Fight it out

I’m pretty sure I’ve used this picture before. I found it in my Facebook memories. But I feel like it fits where I find myself again, fighting for faith. Don’t hear that wrong. I still have faith deep down but there are things to wrestle out. Truthfully, I think I’m still wrestling out things that… Continue reading Fight it out

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Weakness and peace

I’ve been reading and studying through a Bible study on Anxiety and as I watched the companion video on Moses, this quote hit me because it feels so opposite of what the world would say but also because it feels so much like what He’s been trying to teach me. I don’t love weakness. I… Continue reading Weakness and peace

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Gut punches and all the things

Well…hi. It’s been a minute. It’s funny. This blog started after a trip to the bottom of a pit and yet sometimes that’s where I run out of words. I hate to blame C…(you know) on everything but it’s been hard. Watching the career you love become so hard. Watching people die. Loving people who… Continue reading Gut punches and all the things

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Hold my hope

The last year and a half have been hard, brutal even. That’s not a news flash. We’ve all been affected in some way. We’ve all been changed in some way. Last weekend I felt challenged to find my fight again. To fight for me again. And this week I’ve been mulling that over in my… Continue reading Hold my hope