That's kind of a funny title for a blog post about anxiety. I realize that. I'm aware. But it seems like a good one today. Oh, ya...sorry did I not mention...I guess I'm writing about that again today. I mean by now you shouldn't be surprised. If you are, you should know I fully believe… Continue reading Paying attention
Tag: control
A troubled heart
It's 4:35am or so says the clock on the top of this screen. I've been trying to go to sleep for a solid 3 hours at least. I've tried all the things. AC is on polar ice caps. Noise machine on rain storm (even though there's a natural rain storm outside). Weighted blanket. I can't… Continue reading A troubled heart
Sometimes it has to change
I've been pretty anti-change my whole life. My resume itself leads you to believe I stick with one thing for a really long time. Change is hard...probably because it's hard to control and this little control freak doesn't like the unpredictability of it. But change happens. It happens everywhere you look. Seasons change. If they… Continue reading Sometimes it has to change
What you can do
I have been fairly open about mental health in these last months. Whether it's on my blog here, on Instagram or in person, I've not necessarily shied away from it. Some people have wondered. Some people have asked. Why speak so candidly about this? The answer is simple. Because I was ashamed and now I'm… Continue reading What you can do
Death of a dream
I spent some time today reflecting and rereading where we've been. I felt compelled to start this blog a little over a year ago. As I reflect, it feels like so much longer than that as so much has happened. Much of it is found in coming to terms with a life that I didn't… Continue reading Death of a dream
Safety in the journey
"You have things you need to work on, too." This was said to be in the midst of a discussion about something I felt hurt by. First, let me state that I am proud of myself for having the discussion and staying in it until the resolution. Because you see I don't normally do that… Continue reading Safety in the journey
His plans…not mine
This verse in Jeremiah 29 is one that a lot of people love. It's one that I have mixed feelings about. God has a plan for me. Yay! Super! I like it, until His plan doesn't look like I thought it would and His provision for me is so different than I wanted. I'm a… Continue reading His plans…not mine
The sacred middle
It's been almost a month working through this thing, this month where I realized depression was a real thing and a real problem. This was a month where I had to lean quite heavily on my people for a few weeks. But then... Here's the thing, God put those people around me in the worst… Continue reading The sacred middle
Rollin’ with the punches
Random Wednesday check-in? Maybe that will be a new thing. I am still figuring out what I'm doing in this new season and new territory. I'm still processing through what to say publicly and what to process offline with my peeps. Y'all. My people deserve a medal. I'm not sure how many rough patches they… Continue reading Rollin’ with the punches
Changing a mindset
This week has been all about learning to live in the moment, learning to breathe and just focusing on enjoying some of the amazing parts of life. This week has been a blessing, a blessing from which I'm exhausted but a blessing nonetheless. It's been a nice change after the last several weeks. I still… Continue reading Changing a mindset
This Season.... 